Waymarker Tararua Forest Park


The physical landscape offers us waymarkers to follow. Waymarkers are a symbol, or signpost marking the route of a path, an object serving as a guide. The journey inward to our inscape has no physical waymarkers and we must learn to recognise the new signs that mark the way. I’m a guide in both the stunning landscape of the Wairarapa foothills and mountains, and that inward journey to self.

Our inward journey often takes us into darker places before the light shines through, illuminating the way ahead. We have learnt over many centuries of disconnect from the natural world, to no longer see or recognise the markers of the way. In the world of today we are discouraged to find silence to switch of the internal voice, even briefly, we only need our mobile phone and its access to the internet to feel falsely connected and satisfied. As Boris Pasternak reminds us – “When a great moment knocks on the door of your life, it is often no louder than the beating of your heart, and it is very easy to miss it.”

The more I get to take others or just myself out into the ngahere (forest), the more aware I am of the conversation between the soul of the landscape and my inscape soul. Its not heard in the mind, it is more a warm filling of the hollow inside, a feeling of being at ease, of being known and knowing.

I find in poets and their poems a guide to the inward journey. Here is some of the wisdom I return to often if I find myself doubting the path I’m on, or the path no longer visible.

“Some things cannot be spoken or discovered until we have been stuck, incapacitated, or blown off course for awhile. Plain sailing is pleasant, but you are not going to explore many unknown realms that way.” David Whyte

Lost. Stand still. The trees ahead and the bushes beside you are not lost. wherever you are is called Here, and you must treat as a powerful stranger, must ask permission to know and be known.” David Wagoneropening lines from the poem Lost.

“Awaken your spirit to adventure. Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk. Soon you will be home in a new rhythm, for your soul senses the world that awaits you.” John O’Donohue – from, For a New beginning.

Just beyond yourself. Its where you need to be. Half a step into self-forgetting and the rest restored by what you’ll meet. David Whyte – The opening of – Just beyond yourself.




Lessons from the River



Lesson’s from Rivers – # 1

A river carves through rock,

not by force,

 but persistence.


Lessons from the river – #2

A meandering river creates curves in the landscape. On the outside of the curve the river runs fast, on the inside of the curve it runs slow. A river that has gold in it, has the gold falling and settling in the slower part of the river – the inside curve. The bank on the outside of the curve erodes away and the pace of the current means no riches are to be found.

Our gold, the riches of life, is to be found in the slower water. Our soul, our being, the, ‘who we are’, is enriched with slowness. To try to live permanently on the outside of the curve with the speed of the river, is to have our soul, our being, eroded away.


Two excerpts from Reflections from Quiet Waters, to be released soon.

All the elements in place


Today I can confirm that I have all the elements in place to be able to offer day or regular weekly workshops in some stunning places within the Tararua and Remutaka Forest Parks. I’m also open to groups who might want a tailored workshop or rewilding day together.

doc-approved-label-180I’m delighted to have DOC approval and consent to guide participants on nine consented tracks here in the Wairarapa – 8 are in the Tararua Forest Park and one in the South, in the Remutaka Forest Park. Approval also means I have passed the environmental standards set by DOC, as well as safety standards set by an independent auditor, and are now approved to operate in public conservation areas. The use of the logo also confirms that Live Like the River Flows pays fees to DOC to support conservation.

OM sms1Live Like the River Flows has a Safety Management System that has been audited and certified by OutdoorsMark against the Safety Audit Standard for Safety management Systems Document Review. It complies with Department of Conservation Guidelines 2014, Health and Safety at Work 2015 and all relevant activity safety guidelines.

I am a member of Outdoor Training NZ. Through OTNZ I have entered their comprehensive trainer courses. Through them I have also passed my Police vetting check tobe able to work with young people. OTNZ is both a pathway for my ongoing professional development and a place to give something back. And I’m first aid qualified through Red Cross.

I look forward to meeting you and being able to guide you into some beautiful spots to be able to find a slower rhythm and reconnect with the sacred.

Haunted Dreams


Today 150-200 species of plants, insects and animals went extinct. And if that is not frightening enough, the same is going to happen tomorrow and the next day and the next. Most ceased to exist because of human destruction of habitats or just plan wiping them out. What the f _ _ _ are we doing?

it’s 3:23 in the morning

and I’m awake
because my great great grandchildren
won’t let me sleep
my great great grandchildren
ask me in dreams
what did you do while the planet was plundered?
what did you do when the earth was unraveling?

surely you did something
when the seasons started failing?

as the mammals, reptiles, birds were all dying?

did you fill the streets with protest
when democracy was stolen?

what did you do

From Drew Dillinger’s  poem hieroglyphic stairway

I don’t often reflect much on dreams, or their meanings, especially the weird ones. What creates those? But this weekend I celebrated my granddaughters 14th birthday. It seems like it was only a few months ago that she was turning 13. Not that long ago when I could hold her and have her overcome her baby reflux and fall asleep in my arms, while I sung Rod Stewart songs to her.

That night of the grandparents afternoon tea celebration, I dreamt I was talking to an audience and I challenged the baby boomers in the room, (probably the whole room) about what were we doing about climate change?

I awoke with a start, and Dillinger’s poem filled my head and I found myself calculating  what the dates might be, not just for mine but the worlds’  great great children. I realised that my Granddaughter could still be alive in her late 90’s at the turn of the century. What world will she witness for her or the worlds’ great grandchildren? Will she thank me for me for having sung her to sleep as a baby or will she wonder what I did after I woke at 3.23 in the morning.

Connecting with the sacred is a step in the right direction. But if you are looking for a speaker to talk to your group so we can all wake up, let me know, because the call to do something is overwhelming.



Sacred work, sacred places.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAIt is with a sense of delight and a realisation of the possible that I write.

Recently I applied for and was granted Department of Conservation (DOC) approval to access nine walking track sites, with permission to guide people on these, within the Tararua and Remutaka forest parks.

This means that the experiences I want to offer now have a close to home centring, allowing me to hold most of my workshops  and retreats, along with rewilding days at these sites, with the primary location being within the greater Taratahi (Mount Holdsworth) area. A place with lots of space and magnificent native trees, easy formed tracks and the beautiful Awa – The Atiwhakatu River. The last part of the formal process is underway with an independent audit of my safety plan being conducted.


While DOC provides the authorisation, entering the ngahere (forest) for me has to be done with respect and dignity of the local Iwi – Rangitāne o Wairarapa and Kahungunu ki Wairarapa. Meeting with them to talk about the journey I’m on and the one I want to take others on, has been a very precious part of my own unfolding. I have learnt and have a deeper understanding and consideration, to do my best, to tell any of their stories and history in these locations, in an accurate and respectful way. To enter the ngahere with the reverence it and the people who have lived, died and passed through it, need to be shown.

I’m looking forward to meeting and working with those who attend workshops in these places  to reclaim a deeper connection with nature, to find their own sacred connections. The frist will be a pilot launch of my ‘Sacred Friday’s’ in late March. I might see you there.


Side stream before entering the Atiwhakatu


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